MYSELF CLASSIFIEDS

It’s not easy to sell but I did the easiest way that day. I sold a solution like a buy-one-take-one promotion. But you know what? I was so lucky enough because instead of me giving her the “take-one” thingy, I was the one who got  something very special anyway.

Confusing?  My God!!! My client gave me a free counseling. Yes, a free therapy. She had been reading my blog recently and leaved some comments and she said that I was writing some negative thoughts that she couldn’t even see it in my being.

Well, I agree on what she said, I am a loner, there was a familiarity  in my mind to which became a habit. I trained my brain the wrong thing. My mind’s so damn powerful that sometimes I tend to forgot what ’s right and what’s wrong.  It is so powerful when peaceful and silent and so difficult to manage. So untamed like a wild animal turn on me.

Our tete-a-tete was so great but so limited because I had to rush in to my other meetings. My cell phones were ringing and I had to go.   It was so “bitin” and looking forward to have another session like what had happened. It was unexpected and I was a little bit shy at first because we’re not even that closed. When we talked there was a hesitant in me and it was so touching and I wasn’t shy to burst into tears. She touched my life and it was my first time that I heard someone telling me a good story. She lifted me up and gave me some good advice. I know I made a promise to her and will do it for a change. The challenge of “DO-IT myself” assembly…… Everything should start from me. I will start picking up some pieces and start a new me. Yes, I should be a new me.  She’s the right material from God to answer what I have been seeking.  She’s nice to talk with, someone who’s willing to lend her ears, and a good listener.  I may not be a friend to her but I will consider her one.  Thanks Liway2x for the moment….

June 26, 2009

3:35pm CICC

-Maffey -

I need to be very strong, and I know I am really strong,

And why should I cry?

Of course you know me that I am, yeah, we’re both right.

Give-up?No way, I can manage…

There are a lot of things to consider and now

I understand why God had not given him to me yesteryears.

It’s really we’re not meant to be.

I NEED someone to talk to again,

Someone who can lean their long hours for me.

I missed my old friends who kept distance during the time

That I was with someone greedy of his time.

Really missed them….

I missed those crazy weekends with friends,

Those nights we spent talking nonsense but exciting topics that others couldn’t relate (grin…)

I missed those crazy moments in the beach, mall, mountains, eating,

And talking with them without worrying, and hurrying home.

God must really good to us and He has plans you know….

HE guided us along the way and

HE knows that we are not happy anymore.

And He knows we aren’t that strong enough to go on

My conscience said, “Give-up! But to never give-up”.

June 10, 2009

5:51am

My heart won’t speak of what my mind dictates. My mind says go where my heart says no.

I know in my right mind that I’m not doing the right thing and I know what’s wrong with me and don’t have the courage to correct it. One thing that prevented me to go on publicly because of my wrong decisions and I’d rather have to stay at home and surf and write anything what my mind bestowed.

I have a strong desire for something and I know I missed someone, somebody to talk with who are intellectually equipped with good ideas and nice thoughts.  I feel I’m in a den surrounded by dying tigers that were tongue-tied by hunger and again I don’t even have much courage to move out.

My mind loves me, but my heart doesn’t, because it keeps on beating to someone that would bring me into difficult situations. My heart is bad.

I should have love myself because nobody can love me as much as I will do. I had a feeling that I’d rather hurt myself than you who will do it.  I often cried without you knowing yes I cried not because of something else but because of you.  I know I love you but I tried not to show it. I am bad yes I am because sometimes I am selfish and I love to hurt your feelings so that you can feel what I felt inside when someone had once hurt me.  I called you up because I thought that would ease the pain but the more I do I almost die.  You start ignoring me…

I want to love you but I don’t want to feel the pain again.

Branches,

Weak, Fragile

To care or cut?

I felt a great pain.

Communications.

Someone Very Special,

Sincere, Interesting

Talking him like an hour or two,

I felt something strange then..

Soul Mate.

- Color Me Badd -

She’s faced the hardest times you could imagine.
And many times her eyes fought back the tears.
And when her youthful world was about to fall in
Each time her slender shoulders,

Bore the weight of all her fears.
And the sorrow no one hears,
Still rings in midnight silence
In her ears…

Chorus:

Let her cry, for she’s a lady
Let her dream, for she’s a child
Let the rain fall down upon her
She’s a free and gentle flower, growing wild

And if by chance that I should hold her,
Let me hold her for a time

And if allowed but one possession, I will pick her from the garden to be mine.
Mine….

Be careful how you touch her, for she’ll awaken
And sleeps the only freedom that she knows
And when you walk into her eyes, you won’t believe
The way she’s always payin’
For a debt she never owes
And the silent wind still blows, that only she can hear,
And so she goes….

She’s a flower…
Growing wild…….

Breadwinner,

Tired, Charming

Will visit him someday

I love him so much

Father.

Queen,

Crying, waiting

I’m gonna call..

Missing her so much.

Mother.

~ Author Unknown ~

The dangerous people are not the ones
Who hit you with clubs and rob you with guns!
The thief won’t attack your character traits
Or belittle your abilities to your face!
It likely will be a well-meaning friend
Who merely crushes your will to win.

No, he doesn’t rob you, at point of gun,
He simply says, “It can’t be done.”
When pointed to thousands who already are
He smiles and says, “They’re superior!”
Personality-wise, and abilities, too,
They’re way ahead of what others can do!”

It matters not that his words are untrue
For, you feel “others” must know you!
So, you’re robbed of your hopes, your dreams to succeed.
Robbed of the material blessing received,
Robbed of your faith that says, “I can.”
And robbed by an ignorant, gunless friend.

So, the deadliest of men is not he with a gun,
But the one who tells you “It can’t be done!”
For that taken by burglars can be gotten again.
But, what can replace your will to win?

~ Author Unknown ~

~ Denis Waitley ~

You can be a total winner even if you’re a beginner,
If you think you can, you can,
If you think you can, you can,
You can wear the gold medallion,
You can ride your own black stallion,
If you think you can, you can,
If you think you can, you can,

It’s not your talent or the gift at birth,
It’s not your bank book that determines worth,
And it isn’t in the color of your skin,
It’s your attitude that lets you win,
You can upset Connors or Austin,
Or win the marathon at Boston,
If you think you can, you can,
If you think you can, you can,

You can profit through inflation,
You can redirect this nation,
If you think you can, you can,
If you think you can, you can,

It doesn’t matter if you’ve won before,
It makes no difference what’s the half time score,
It’s never over until the final gun,
So keep on trying and you’ll find you’ve won,
You grab your dream and then believe it,
Go out and work and you’ll achieve it,
If you think you can, you can,
If you think you can, you can!